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It is Tuesday and time to write a 'Slice of Life." 
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Someone is singing an opera in my backyard as I write; they’ve been at it all morning. My Merlin app tells me they are a Northern Flicker, a visually beautiful dear soul with dotted plumage, yet I cannot catch even one tiny glance. They prefer to sing from deep within the leafing branches of the maple tree, and perhaps their song is one of lament because I am not able to see them. Yes, I put myself at the center of their song.

I don’t know what to tell you.

Hmm.

Does anyone else have trouble starting a ‘Slice of Life,’ now that the March challenge is over and the writing is not daily? 

Which personal thread to grab onto and run-write with it? 

I simply don’t know.

I could tell you about my relaxing weekend in the woods, on retreat with my book group. I could write about our conversation about Ann Patchett’s Tom Lake. Oh, and how a few of us watched the 1940 film classic of Our Town, as a little ‘background’ for the book. 

(Should I tell you how surprising it was that this movie deigned to create a new ‘happy’ ending for Thornton Wilder’s play?)

I could focus on just one hike, share with you the sweet spring growth I observed. Here are a couple photos of this emergence:

Oh, but I’ve shared about countless hikes in this space.

How about I tell you about the book I’m reading – Terrance Hayes’ Watch Your Language? I am absolutely awed by his witty and playful writing, how he draws clever doodles throughout the book, and simultaneously offers so much scholarly wisdom on Black poets and the history of modern poetry in general. He is piercing many myths I have swallowed whole. With every page, my understanding and curiosity about poetry expands.

I don’t know where to begin.

Consider this excerpt about Gwendolyn Brooks, as he considers the historical timeline of ‘modern great poets’ –

Brooks makes any conversation about American poetry of the last half century more interesting. Brooks was born in 1917, the same year as Robert Lowell, who won the Pulitzer in 1947, three years before Brooks. When he passed in 1977 Lowell was considered one of the chief poets of the twentieth century. He taught both Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath. His family history could be traced back to the Mayflower.

As Robert Lowell is to Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath, Brooks is to several generations of poets. Brooks met with James Baldwin and many Black poets of the era in her living room. I wish there was a better record of her relationship with Sonia Sanchez, their chats about motherhood, poetry, Blackness, community. Sonia Sanchez published her debut, Homecoming, in 1969, the same year Lucille Clifton published her debut, Good Times. Audre Lorde published The First Cities, her debut, in 1968. Brooks was a central figure in the work of all three poets.

Terrance Hayes, Watch Your Language, pp 24-25
He notes, 
“She often goes unacknowledged the way caretakers and angels go unacknowledged.”

Terrance Hayes’ writing sends me tumbling, makes me pause, reflect, and re-read. He makes me wonder about all the details that were left out of my schooling. I chase down my Gwendolyn Brooks poetry book and lose myself within.

There is so much I was never taught.
There is so much that was so dull about the way I was taught.
There is so much more to learn.

Why was I never challenged to question?

I don’t know what to tell you.

Let me close with a poem I wrote yesterday for Ethical ELA, where Angie Braaten prompted us to write an elegy, with inspiration from Clint Smith's poem “Playground Elegy.” Honestly, I think all of my above rambles fed into this poem:
Textbook Elegy

The first time       I penned                  my name and date
in that       rectangle stamp       of the history textbook 
reading the     names of students     from years before 
I turned   quickly   to      chapter one,              devouring. 
Each   line      of text     so pure and real and insightful.
I studied every page and absorbed  great knowledge.
I looked forward      to the next year’s               textbook
revealing    so much                 more                 of the world.
It would be  years   before I noticed its     white space. 
I knew sanitized only from the bathroom.          I knew
sifted from cakes,                      left out from friendships,
omitted from   don’t say that      around mom and dad. 
I didn’t know                 what                              I didn’t know. 
I read with joy,                     absorbing believing trusting.
Now I wonder who   powers  every single line of text
and do students wonder about this and does anyone
know         what is not written.  
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6 Comments

  1. I am overwhelmed by your poem – so powerful, so much truth. I also grew up with the sanitized textbooks, white authors, invisible parts of history that I had no clue about.

    • Thank you for commenting, Becky. The more I learn that WAS NOT in my textbooks, the more I wonder about what is still being left out.

  2. Maureen, oh, I’m so glad you wrote this background about your thoughts as you wrote your elegy poem. I read it in a hurry yesterday and never made it back to comment. These I knew… lines are so powerful. Yes, there is so much we didn’t know we didn’t know. I’m worries that students are still now able to know because of the (at least out in the open) violations of truth and remembering. Thank you for your newsy and interesting post, and for the truths you share!

    I knew sanitized only from the bathroom. I knew
    sifted from cakes, left out from friendships,
    omitted from don’t say that around mom and dad.
    I didn’t know what I didn’t know.

    • Thank you, Denise! I hope you are able to read the post on something larger than a phone screen; I tried to left & right justify the margins, as a textbook layout typically presents. I just pulled this up on my phone and my poem looks a little ridiculous. Oh, well.

  3. Maureen,
    One of the first poems I came to love in high school is Brooks’s “Lovers of the Poor,” but I didn’t read it in English. A friend used it as a competitive piece in speech, and I have shared it w/ so many students over the years. I think that poem was a huge social justice influence for me. I have not read the Terrance Hayes book but love his poetry. I wanted him to win the NBA for American Sonnets for My Past and Future Assassin. I must buy that book. I did learn a lot of literary history in grad school lit classes and remember learning about Langston Hughes’s three patrons. This month has caused a lot of eye pain for me, and I haven’t been commenting as much as I usually do. I’m sorry I missed your brilliant poem. It really is superb. If you haven’t already, check out the podcast Teaching Texas, but know it will make your blood boil.

  4. Terrance Hayes has been on my radar lately, and I read Maud Martha by Gwendolyn Brooks which added to my limited knowledge of her. Thanks so much for sharing about her influence here. The quote you shared I love, “She often goes unacknowledged the way caretakers and angels go unacknowledged.”
    The spacing of this line from your poem, “I didn’t know what I didn’t know,” says it all.

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